Sketch book experiments

Sketch book experiments

While trying to develop my ideas of how sex is used as an escapism, I tried some visual creations to try to inspire me, since finding an artist that uses condoms in the same gratifications as me. I did a 3 piece image based on myself. ‘Memories are worthless’ is the first part that consists of a film negative in a money bag, followed by ‘Sex is priceless’, just a plain condom stuck to paper, leads to the final piece, ‘Fuck yourself’, a page from a pornographic magazine, with images of myself with my eyes covered. This piece was created purely to inspire myself, and motivate my mind to create as I am currently caught up with my dissertation, that is giving me an artist block. Looking back on the piece, I don’t think that I could relate it to any significance in my project, however, I feel that I represents a glimpse into my own personal conflicts.

After deciding that I cannot use any of the new experiments to move forward, I decided to move on, but still using condoms. I created a mini journal, set out like a note book. It consisted of 4 pages, where I photocopied 4 condoms on each page. I used this to question why sex could be used as a cure for Isoloneliness. The first page worked like a number factory (those mathematical machines used at school to help develop sum skills). The condom is a factory that answers the questions you put in. I called this the sex guru.

QUESTEION                                  SEX GURU                           ANSWER

The cure for loneliness?                 .................                         yes

An excuse to fuck?                         .................                         yes

Habit?                                             .................                         yes

Animal instinct?                              .................                         yes

Fear of rejection                             .................                         debatable

The next 2 pages were based on opposites. The 4 condoms on the 2^nd page each had a title, and on the 3^rd page, a word that was an opposite was used as a title for that pages condoms.

PLEASURE                                           ................                           PAIN

PASSION                                              ................                           FEAR

EXCITMENT                                        ................                           DREAD

ROMANCE                                          ................                           LUST

The fourth page of the journal was shrunk by using a photocopier. It consisted of 4 condoms, but with no information attached, apart from the clip in the corner that stated ‘PROJECT ABANDONED’. The whole project is to represent the truth in the cure, that what we think, is actually the opposite of what we want. We want to believe that what we think helps, but it doesn’t, or that it might only be temporary. This project also invokes more questions, and ideas for projects. What happens when we detach from our sexual partners? When 2 become 1, what becomes of the 1, and what does the 1 feel when the 2 are not together?

Moving on

I have decided to move on from condoms, and the mission to explore a cure for Isoloneliness. This is because I feel that I cannot create a sound project that can express Isoloneliness. The journal experiment didn’t work because it was basic, and nothing to stimulate the viewers thinking. Again, it has failed to represent a solid argument for a cure. The whole concept of this project is becoming difficult because of the technicalities of expression. One problem I found I have in my work is assuming that what I state is an actual fact, a fact shared by a collective thought shared by everyone on this planet. I feel that, in order for this project to move on, I should try to make this project based on human thought, and leave it to the psychologists.